karasumaakane | (no subject)

Let's be honest here, the weekend kind of blew. Blew chunks actually. Most of it was my fault, but some of it wasn't. Let's start with my midterm. I waited till the LAST possible day to start it! >< That wasn't the problem though - I procrastinate all the time and I manage to pull through. The problem was that I couldn't focus - my grade depends on a few things and this was one of them. I could NOT force myself to do it! Why? I don't understand. Because of my horrible concentration, I was late to Ami's house by almost two hours. I guess that didn't matter too much cause I'm always late too.

I was going to skip class next Saturday to go paintballing with Roxy and her friends... was. I can't go. Which sucks cause I've never been paintballing. After that I went over to Ami's house and took pictures of her in some of her costumes. I don't think she liked any of them, plus it was really windy. Grrr... We were supposed to watch Witch Hunter Robin, but all of us were so tired (especially me) - it just didn't happen.

Dressed up as Sirius Black for Halloween. For a last minute idea and having to wear stubble, it wasn't too bad, but there is no way I'm going to do it again. There were a series of things I got called last night. It started to piss me off after a while, but it doesn't bother me any more cause I know not to wear it again. Ta-da! Problem solved. Went to Ameristar Casino cause Crissy wanted to go. I ordered this huge sundae thing on accident - about hurked it up. Then I made the mistake of picking the movie Hero. I didn't like, but no one liked it. Ami and Hotaru showed their disgust for the movie by talking through most of the movie. Crissy and Luna just sat there. I made an effort to read the subtitles about half of the time. I didn't think the weekend was that bad until I woke up this morning. I've been on edge all day and I couldn't figure out why... until I summed up the weekend in my head. It blew.

On a lighter note, my sister used my Klaha coat for Halloween... apparently her friends loved my craftsmanship of the coat! Oh, and I can drool over Data all I want now! We figured out that I'm an android. I have an excellent memory, or so they tell me. I don't think I will win anything in the Crossplay contest, but that's okay cause the Sephiroth and the Kozi should win. I voted for the Sephiroth, but the Kozi was awesome too! ^_^

The GM asked me to teach the Tai Chi and Gung Fu class this upcoming Saturday. They are having a Masters only (sixth degree and up) class and I'll be the highest rank still going to the Taichi-gungfu class. I had plans to go paintballing with Roxy, but that got thrown out the window. It doesn't bother me that I had to cancel on Roxy or that I have to teach the class. I'm just unsure of what to do. The GM said he had confidence in my teaching abilities. I believe him, I just don't know what he wants me to go through. I guess I'll just pay attention Wednesday night and review that on Saturday. There was only one new guy last Saturday anyways, but with my luck everyone will show up.

I'm honored to be recognized as a Renshi Master. The GM tells me that I'm his first female fourth degree in 30 or so years. I'm happy they think so highly of me, but I also get the feeling that I'm being tested a lot more now. Some of the tests are painfully obvious. For instance, in class last Thursday - we were on the mats and GM told me to defend myself for a minute. He came in swinging a couple times and I deflected his attacks. He said I did good - I can only hope.

My own lack of confidence is getting annoying. I know I can do this, but when it comes to prove myself to others I get nervous. I also know I can teach others, but I'm new at it so my methods are a bit raw. GM asked me how I felt about my fight game and I said that I was missing something, but didn't know what. He said I was missing the grapling and he's definately right about that. He's shown me a few things and they have helped, but I still need some work.

Since I got my promotion, I have felt very separated especially in the Karate class. Luna got a temporary promotion to the same rank, but she has to "prove her worth" as she put it. I just say she has to come to class - which is hard cause she has classes, and she got in a car accident. It would be hard for her to come to class to get beat on when she's already broken. Jeremiah got promoted to a Master in training and Brock got promoted too. Crissy also got promoted to a sensei, but GM keeps her with the other sensei's and down. I'm kind of on my own here. GM said that the next special seminar will be for Renshi Masters and I said, "So that's. . . . me?" Yup. I'll probably be combined with the sensei's and down for that one. Jeremiah and Brock are being really nice to me, especially Jeremiah. I'm thankful, because it's slowly helping me adjust to my new position.

Everyone seems to have confidence in me, even Master Willie and Hanshi Nussle. Too bad I can't get some of that action.

Thank you very much-o, Mr. Roboto, for helping me escape just when I needed to! Thank you! Thaank you!